Monday, March 17, 2008

Hmm. Oh well.

I, Katie Andrus, single-handedly destroyed my math class' chance of being the highest scoring section on the last midterm.

I knew when I walked out of the Testing Center (should that be capitalized? it looks a bit funny) that I was going to be lucky to get a 50% out of that, but I didn't realize it was going to be this bad...
I signed up for an honors calculus II class because it had a better teacher, a smaller class size, and the exact same assignments and quizzes as the regular classes, and I thought why not just do honors? So I'm now stuck in this class with a bunch of math majors and math minors who actually enjoy math while I'm just gritting my teeth and trying to endure another semester of a subject I've grown to despise. Apparently math hates me too because we are not getting along right now. Anyway, my teacher always figures out which class had the highest average on each test and usually we're in the top two or three, but this time, oh no, our average was right about the same as the overall average among all the math 113 classes (63ish %). I think it was my fault. We had a girl who got a 99% in our class and two other kids who got somewhere around a 98% or a 97% and my teacher said there were a bunch of others who scored within just a few points of that. But even with all those high scores, I think I successfully destroyed any chance we had of having a high average.

My score:
thirty seven.
Out of one hundred points.

I have never, ever failed a test before. My definition of fail was anything below an 85. Unfortunately that definition has now been revised to the normal definition of fail...
And this all drives me crazy because I feel like I have to compete against all these kids who love math and whatever and I do not and I do not have time to spend on math because I've been getting ready for ballroom competitions every day all semester long and maybe if they had a life other than integrals and infinite series they would struggle a bit more too. (Ok, I'm sure they all have lives other than math, and some of them are pretty cool, it's just easier to be angry if I pretend they don't and aren't.) And another thing, I do not like being looked at as the dumb blonde who somehow stumbled her way into an honors calculus class. Ok math class? This is to you: I was a freaking valedictorian, I got a 4.0 last semester, I'm getting paid to go to college (although I think I'm probably going to lose my scholarship now) and I am not an idiot, no matter how much I look like one in this class! Meh. meh meh meh. I'm edging towards complete academic burn-out.

The worst part is I don't care. I haven't even shed a tear yet. What is wrong with me?

7 comments:

Amanda said...

Oh I'm so glad we're friends.

Suzy said...

katya, let's have a crying woe-is-me session when we get our grades back this semester and realized we worked our bums off...only to lose our scholarships.... ah me. But, hey--at least you can dance like none other and you're a NATIONAL AMATEUR LATIN SEMI-FREAKING FINALIST!!!!!! With that title, what else matters?

kylie said...

you're one of the smartest people i know. and no, math people don't have lives, so stop pretending that they do.

Katya said...

Kylie, I love you, haha. And thanks Suzy. I think you, me, and Amanda could work up quite the pity party...except we wouldn't get to have any good treats because somehow all of my creamery money is gone...stupid rip-off store.

Ash said...

nothing is wrong with you:D i wish i could say i had never failed a test! and you are one of the most brilliant people i know!!! i have no idea how you do it all! dance, school, 4.0, social life hello you're amazing

Jody Lynn said...

You are amazing Katie. Don't let this one test let you down. I don't think you will be losing your scholarship this semester. I agree with everything Ashley said. How do you do it? Balancing school, dance, social life, etc, etc, etc. Oh, and can I join your pity party? :)

Ashlynn said...

Ah Katie... Don't worry about it. It's one test, and you're so freakin' amazing...! I wish I could say I'd never failed a test, but so far that's all I've been doing here at college. Hahaha. :P Ah, you'll be able to pull right through it. ;) You're a genius!