Monday, March 29, 2010
461 homework is done (thank you thank you thank you Dave).
391 paper is...getting there...
French doesn't feel too daunting
and neither does lab.
So, what did we learn kiddies?
Katie should try harder not to freak out about school all the time.
I read Romans 8 last week, and I really like a lot of the verses in there:
18: For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed to us.
26: Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.
28: And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
31: What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can prevail against us?
35: Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?
37: Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors though him that loved us.
38: For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor pricipalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
39: Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
May I add "nor 391 papers, nor 461 homework, nor post lab quizzes, nor sleepless nights, nor feelings of inadequacy shall be able to separate us from the love of God"?
Everything will work out. Things will get better. The semester will end.
I have been so richly blessed. If school is all I have to worry about, life is not so bad.
It's just hard to remember that sometimes.
I stayed up all night minus the two hours I feel asleep on the couch writing my paper and therefore am allowed to wax overdramatic. I don't believe there are many things more depressing than seeing your unslept in bed the next morning.
The paper is still not finished.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
391 paper, you are about to get burned!
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Alone in my little world
Who dreamed of a little home for me
I played pretend between the trees
And fed my houseguests bark and leaves
And laughed in my pretty bed of green
I had a dream
That I could fly
From the highest swing
I had a dream
Long walks in the dark
Through woods grown behind the park
I asked God who I'm supposed to be
The stars smiled down at me
God answered in silent reverie
I said a prayer and fell asleep
I had a dream
That I could fly
From the highest tree
I had a dream
My dearest friend Amanda already wrote a post with this song, but I just have to steal it and post with it too.
I feel like I have so many things to say, but I don't know how to phrase any of them. Right now it sounds like
stay in San Francisco forever, Berkeley, grad school, PhD? don't want to be lonely in California? fluorescent nano diamonds, don't pigeonhole yourself, industry v. academia, Y Chem, dreams dreams dreams
Makes sense, yeah?
Nope. But that's okay because I've got to finish a French take home test that was due yesterday (ah, what a candidate I am for grad school. goodness).
We'll talk later, okay blogging buddies?
Hope your weeks have been grand!
Friday, March 26, 2010
1. Marry a scientist.
2. Go to Berkeley.
The order is fairly flexible on this, just as long as they both happen.
Oh, and seeing "Wicked" from the center second row...most definitely awesome. Almost as awesome as touring the above school, buying two Jhumpa Lahiri books for less than $10 a piece at the used bookstore next to Zachery's Pizza, and seeing the amazing lab of a Nobel laureate at UCSF.
I swear I never want to go home.
Next up: Genentech, shopping, cream puffs.
We know how to have fun.
*"Futures" which is currently stuck in my head
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Unfortunately, we still have homework. It is becoming increasingly difficult to motivate myself to do anything, such as the French take-home test due Thursday, the 15-20 page first draft of my review paper due Monday, p chem homework due Friday, two post lab quizzes due Monday, and a lab presentation due Friday.
Ugh, ugh, ugh.
All I want to do is attend lectures, tour Berkeley, see "Wicked", and get free ice cream at Ben and Jerry's.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
I own chem 464 prelab quizzes!!!!
Going from getting anywhere between a 3 and a 7 on 465 quizzes last term to getting 9, 9.5, and tonight, a glorious 10 is the sweetest feeling ever.
Now I'm going to go finish my French reading and do 30 minutes of 391 writing. All while trying very hard not to fall asleep on my couch (my couch! I'm at home, and it's only midnight! This is dangerous, however, as I was at the chem building until 3 AM last night and am extremely tired today. Must. Stay. Awake.)
I hope you all are having lovely weeks. I just have one question: how do you cope with having far more to do than hours in the day/how can I get to bed earlier without changing my major?
Monday, March 15, 2010
But I'm stuck in my apartment researching liquid crystal phase changes and entropies and cannot leave!
Bring me one, and I will love you platonically forever! Unless you're an attractive, smart boy and then maybe I will love you romantically forever!
We have bigger problems now.
Something was wrong with our power supply or something so the temperature in the calorimeter/cryostat (the thing the calorimeter goes in) was way hotter than the temperature we were reading off the computer and well, the solder holding the calorimeter together melted.
It is now in four lovely pieces and the inside of cryostat is fried.
Instead of rewiring a centimeter diameter, three inch tall piece of metal, we are rewiring the entire three foot tall cryostat. Estimated time of completion(isn't there a better way to say that? I can't think, I have a headache): end of August. Awesome.
I'm sort of grateful though, for all of these mishaps. They have allowed me to really learn all the little details about my instrument and my research in general. With the one postdoc in my group being the only real calorimetry expert in the lab, it's good for me to gain this kind of expertise. So I'm not complaining...
I just never thought I'd say I wish I could just rewire the thermometer again.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
On a happy note, I'm getting a full tuition ballroom scholarship next year. So even if I fail all of my classes and lose my academic one, I'll still be getting paid to go to school. Thank you donor!
Friday, March 12, 2010
A pretty flower in a vase
A slipper by the fireplace
A cello lying in its case
Soon she's down the stairs
Her morning elegance she wears
The sound of water makes her dream
Awoken by a cloud of steam
She pours a daydream in a cup
A spoon of sugar sweetens up
And she fights for her life
As she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain
As it pours
And she fights for her life
As she goes in a store
With a thought she has caught
By a thread
She pays for the bread
And she goes...
Thursday, March 11, 2010
let’s go said he
not too far said she
what’s too far said he
where you are said she
e. e. cummings
I saw this on Meg Fee's blog and very much liked it. Who doesn't like a little e. e. cummings every now and then? Or maybe twice in the past month...who knew I was such a fan?
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Just let me go to bed please.
Monday, March 8, 2010
Seriously though, if you want to spend four days running around LA and the beach with me, send me a message or a text. I think I'm going to buy plane tickets sometime this week.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
As I was doing laundry at 8:00 on a Saturday night (tonight) I thought to myself (these are my exact thoughts) I wish I had a really good singing voice so I could be, you know, that hot, sort of indie girl who sings in the laundry room by herself on a Saturday night, but is really good, and seems cool and independent. And then I realized how weird I was and went back to my apartment.
I just remembered today that Berkeley has an element named after it. (thanks to my periodic poster hanging over my bed! Thanks Amanda!) This, combined with a much inspiring conversation among Sara, Sam, Dr. Asplund and I a couple days ago, has only heightened my desire to go to grad school there.
I already started packing for my trip to San Francisco that's in three weeks. I normally pack at 1 AM the night before, so there's a hint on how excited I am. Also, I need more business casual. And a suit.
And a valid driver's license.
And a better outline for my review paper.
And a plan for my life.
Anyway...hope you all are having great weekends!
*I feel like this would make for a highly entertaining post. My other qualifications include: curry making and knowing how to use a torque wrench. How these might come in handy, I'm not sure, but I would love to see the situation that would require them both.
Friday, March 5, 2010
Soo....as of March 3rd, I am officially 21! (and officially without a valid driver's license...uh oh.)
Many thanks for all of the texts, calls, facebook messages, etc. You guys are great!
My roommate Natalie, photographer extraordinaire, took a bunch of photos from our roommate trip to Spark that fully captured the essence of what a birthday is supposed to be about:
Tastes as good as it looks...mmm....
I also went out to lunch at India Palace (chicken tikka masala, heavenly) with my mom and Becky. From my family I received all three seasons of "Avatar: the Last Airbender". You know what this means, right? Weekly marathons. I think yes.
Perhaps the best present though, was getting that dang thermometer fixed! That's what working in the lab on your birthday does for you! :D
Oh, and, I have a little announcement.
That I've known for a while, but was so scared someone was going to email me and say, "Just kidding, we really don't want you," but this week was the first prep class and no one's changed their mind yet, so:
I'm doing an internship in France this summer!!!!! AHHH!!! I get to spend May 28th through the end of August in Europe!!!! AHHHH!!!! So excited!
Anyway. There's the update on life.
You should all come play lasertag with me tonight at 8:00, for a triple celebration of my birthday, my fixing skills, and my future summer in France. :)