Wednesday, July 1, 2009

I have no response

So....
my partner is no longer on the ballroom team.

And I no longer know what I want to do with myself.

My conflict: it's a Blackpool year (which means we travel to the most prestigious ballroom competition in the world in Blackpool, England), and it's always been my dream to compete there. Will my partner be able to fly out just to dance one round? In all likelihood we will not make a single cut...not really worth a $1000 plane ticket. At the same time, I feel burned out. I want to move forward with chemistry and French. I want to make the Dean's List next semester and spend my afternoons and evenings in study groups and in the library, not really so much in a studio. BUT, I also know it would practically kill me to watch Dancesport in November and not be dressed in a $800 costume and a half pound of makeup and hairspray.

Option AI. Keep dancing with same partner. Drag myself through rehearsals and lessons.
Option AII. Keep dancing with same partner. Pray for renewed determination and a major attitude adjustment.

Option B. Beg old partner for forgiveness.

Option CI. Take the year off.
Option CII. Take the year off and dance class routines with some random person on team at Blackpool.

Thoughts?

11 comments:

Jody Lynn said...

katie, i also know it would kill you not to compete at blackpool. you must go! you'll regret it later if you don't.

hope you figure out what to do soon!

kylie said...

i agree with jody. you must dance. somehow. and you must go to blackpool.
take it from someone with much much less experience and skill...i died last year from no dancing, especially at dancesport time. listening to the announcer in his brit voice go, "and next...the foxtrot! music, please..." and not being able to participate...it sucks. katie. dance.

Tedi said...

Option D. Dance with Logan. ;) I'm sorry to hear about your partner. If it makes you feel any better... Chase won't compete with me, and all I want to do is go to like 1 or 2 competitions. I danced my first one in February, and now I want to do a few more. :) SO fun! Good luck!

Jen said...

You'll want to dance there. You know you will. But it just depends on who you're able to dance with. There's nothing wrong with going and just using class routines, but at the very least, you're going to want to dance.

The question is if Mike is going to want to compete open at all.

I'm so sorry that you have to be in this situation :(

But I must say how excited I am for my dear Ryan.

brown eyed girl said...

Well. Coming from someone who knows far less about the ballroom world, but a little bit about dancing, and dancing on a team, and then not dancing on a team: It's probably going to be tough either way. It's really hard to step away from something that has been such a huge part of your life for so long. But, at the same time, sometimes that is exactly what you need to remember how much you love it.

I guess all I can really say is trust yourself, and you'll make the right decision for you. Good luck!

amanda and dave said...

wait, who is the old partner to forgive?? you should find a partner and dance! I'd say (I can't remember the option numbers now...but)...try to find a way to dance but also do chemistry! I'm sorry it's so complicated, but I think you should still try to find your way to blackpool!

amanda and dave said...

Okay, I like C2. because you still dance in blackpool but you get your year of not so much stress. I know it'll kill you not to dance, but maybe you have to see how that is, if not for one or two semesters. but keep on the team but just don't do individual stuff? Is that an option? I don't know. that's so crazy!

Linda Lou said...

Hmm those are tough decisions. My own life mantra might help: "I'd rather regret the things I have done than the things I have not" -Lucille Ball. Make a pros/cons list. The thing you will regret most NOT doing is the answer. It'd be a pity to waste your dance talent as well as this huge opportunity. Also...pray. Good luck! :)

Kimkidoni said...

I'd say that you should pray about it. Also, the Lord opens doors, so the route that you are supposed to take will probably be less complicated. I know you love to dance though, so I hope it works out that you can do everything. Sometimes you just have to give something up though.

~*Alina*~ said...

Do whatever you need to to get to Blackpool. Everyone will understand your choice. Not many people get that option, but you do! Don't write it out just yet.

Josh said...

Let's be frank, I think you know how I feel. Coming from a boy that cares about you more than anything in the world I'm a little bias. I know how much you love dancing. I know how much you've dreamt of going to compete at Blackpool, but remember what I said about Mike. I can almost guarantee you that I am not too distant from the truth. Katie, in my own selfish petitions of my heart I wish I could see you hour by hour but I know that I need to let you spread your wings and soar. Be careful. Be prayerful and keep an open mind. Don't concede to do that which the world wishes you to do. Do it for you. I will be here to support and love you no matter the decision you make. I love you Katie......