my partner is no longer on the ballroom team.
And I no longer know what I want to do with myself.
My conflict: it's a Blackpool year (which means we travel to the most prestigious ballroom competition in the world in Blackpool, England), and it's always been my dream to compete there. Will my partner be able to fly out just to dance one round? In all likelihood we will not make a single cut...not really worth a $1000 plane ticket. At the same time, I feel burned out. I want to move forward with chemistry and French. I want to make the Dean's List next semester and spend my afternoons and evenings in study groups and in the library, not really so much in a studio. BUT, I also know it would practically kill me to watch Dancesport in November and not be dressed in a $800 costume and a half pound of makeup and hairspray.
Option AI. Keep dancing with same partner. Drag myself through rehearsals and lessons.
Option AII. Keep dancing with same partner. Pray for renewed determination and a major attitude adjustment.
Option B. Beg old partner for forgiveness.
Option CI. Take the year off.
Option CII. Take the year off and dance class routines with some random person on team at Blackpool.