I wrote this earlier today. I'm feeling better now. :)
I have a nagging feeling that I am teetering towards drowning in things I do not understand or do not want to face. I have no control, but at the same time I have all the control. I am the master manipulator.
I promise I'm a nice person.
So why do I feel like such an ice queen?
Or maybe I'm just freaking out again, like I always do. Or maybe I just let things get too far. I don't know. I suck at soul searching and figuring myself out. Could someone please tell me who I am and what I'm thinking? I'm having a hard time piecing it together.
School started today. The weather was a perfect Indian summer. I enjoyed my classes. I went to work. I got food (finally).
I should go befriend my roommates or something.
But I just feel like crying.