Saturday, October 24, 2009

love, save the empty

I'm sitting in my room listening to the rain fall. Today I was in the homecoming parade, handing out balloons marked with "50th Anniversary- Ballroom Dance Company Annual Concert April [whatever the date is that I can't think of right now, but you should all buy tickets from me and come when it rolls around]" to little kids. It was actually really fun. All of the other teams had to dance lindy, but we did not (and did not have to spend the time to learn the routine), as we have already sacrificed enough time to the ballroom gods lately.
This week was sort of weird for me. I got back from tour and jumped right back into school...except kept doing performances with Homecoming Spectacular all week too...so it was like tour...only at home... (odd thing number one) somehow I managed to get all the way caught up with my schoolwork by Tuesday night (odd thing number two). Granted, this took failing (ok, so I use that term loosely) a physics test (perfectly normal), but at least it's over. This white cat with one blue eye and one green eye has been wandering around my apartment complex (odd thing number three). I named it Francis in my head as it followed me back and forth between my apartment and the laundry room a couple days ago. Both of my classes were canceled on Thursday (odd thing number four). It was national chemistry week, and I ate liquid nitrogen ice cream every other day. I finished my physics homework that's due Monday on Friday (odd thing number five).

I feel a little...off kilter? maybe? I'm not sure what I'm "supposed" to be doing with myself now...I could leave on a mission next fall. I could do study abroad next fall. I could stay on the team and go to Thailand next summer. I could do more research and get a paper published. I could, I could, I could.

But what is it that I should?

Hmmm.

I should go study for American Christianity.

Happy weekend everyone. :)

3 comments:

brown eyed girl said...

Oh the shoulds and coulds of what and what not to do. I don't like decisions. Sometimes I wish I could just have someone tell me what to do. And then other times I wish I could just do whatever I want to.

I feel like the reality is sort of a combination of the two: wanting to do what you're supposed to do. I wish that was easier to figure out though.


And our American Christianity min-imarathon was highly productive :)

amanda and dave said...

I listened to that song today! it was good. wow, nice job on balancing so many things this last week! hope this next week is good too!

man! that is so weird we'll be 21 next year. I don't know what I'd do if you left, but that'd be a good experience for you, i'm sure :) Thailand! sweet!

meh, life's weird sometime, eh?

Amy said...

You know, its always nice to know that I'm not the only one who is trying to decided what to do with their life. I'm happy that you dont' know either because you're smart and if you dont know then its okay that I don't know.