Sunday, July 11, 2010

like the ocean needs the waves

Sometimes, I just feel so overwhelmed with the knowledge of how little I know. There are so many interesting subjects out there! Today I've had wikipedia pages open on Leon Trotsky, Frida Kahlo (have been reading The Lacuna, Barbara Kingsolver's latest novel), Richard Feynman, quantum electrodynamics, quantum computers, standard model, path integral formulation (just finished reading Six Easy Pieces, a book about basic physics by Richard Feynman). There are so many classes I still want to take. Computer programming, social dance teaching methods, French phonetics, linear algebra, differential equations, the advanced quantum class, kinetics, spectroscopy, French and Italian cinema, ballroom and latin theory, etc etc. And then there are all of the books I haven't read! So many classics, so many church books, so many novels, so many scientific publications, oh my gosh. 

So many publications I haven't written. So many presentations I haven't given. So many classes without A's. 

I suppose that is what I keep going back to. 
I worked so hard in high school so I could have as many opportunities as possible for college. And it paid off.
I just hope I didn't throw it all away in the meantime...? 

Grad school makes me nervous.
The end.

2 comments:

amanda/dave said...

I know what you mean about all the things you'll never read or do..it's crazy! wow, nice job on the reading and stuff! :)

Naomi Martineau said...

UGH grad school makes me nervous too. I try to forget about everything I don't know (that makes me nervous) and just remember that I know thats what I'm supposed to do.

P.S. I saw Aaron this week (you'd think I'd see him more but I don't) and it made me miss you :( Come home soon!