Sunday, January 8, 2012

hurts like heaven

Four weeks ago today Zach, we got the news of your death, and I think I finally have something worth posting about you.


This is Zach, lover of drums, karate, and golf, thirteen years old, random and crazy as ever. The video sums him up better than I ever could in words, but here are a few words' attempt anyway.

I didn't know Zach for very long, as Aaron and I have only been married a year, and we spent half of it living 2,000 miles away. One of my memories of him though, was from when we were in North Carolina for our beach vacation in June. He was always out on the boogie board, even when the waves were big enough that I was too freaked out to go out that far. He had this red beanie that he always had to be wearing. One time he came in from swimming, put it on his wet head, took a nap, and the beanie bled red dye all over the white pillowcase. We thought that was the funniest thing. Another memory is from the chemistry department brunch after graduation in April. Zach and I were in line for food, and I was talking to one of my former professors. She asked Zach what he wanted to be when he grew up, and I forget exactly what he said, but it had something to do with the stock market. He then went into a detailed (and quite accurate) explanation of how the stock market worked. Did you know how the stock market worked at the age of 12? And would you have had the guts to explain it to someone much older than you? That was Zach. He wasn't afraid of anything.

On our anniversary, we watched our wedding video, and there you were Zach, wishing us a good marriage at the luncheon and thanking Aaron for "letting me be in your wedding group", dancing with your sisters at the reception, smiling, happy, alive. We cried.
I have spent the last three weeks wishing I could undo December 11th. But for whatever reason, it was your time to go. Zach, we miss you and love you so much. We look forward to when we can be with you again.


Saturday, December 24, 2011

joy to the world! i am free of airports!


After a long day and a half by myself in Philly (Aaron's flight left the day before mine, I know, the world's smallest violin is playing a sad song right now), I finally got to fly home! Until I missed my connecting flight in Dallas and had to spend the night in that wretched, freezing, mouse-ridden, eternally bright airport courtesy of American Airlines. No, I'm not bitter at all. 

But I finally made it home to hang out with Aaron's family for Christmas and New Year's! The older I get, the more I appreciate being home and with family. This year is no exception. 

Merry Christmas to you all!

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

one reason to celebrate:


A year ago today I married my best friend, and what a year it has been.
I love you Aaron!

Sunday, December 18, 2011

brooklyn loves watching the silly elephants

I think I have more I want to say, but until I figure out how, this was one of Zach's favorite songs. And the music video is perfect for him:



Paradise by Coldplay

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

paradise

Thank you so much for your outpouring of love and support. We are in awe of the kindness we've received from so many. Thank you for the comments, tweets, messages, phone calls, emails and prayers. They have made a world of difference.

We feel so blessed not only to have such a wonderful support group, but also to know that we will be with Zach again. Life does not end with death, but continues on because of the resurrection of Jesus Christ. He truly has borne all of our sorrows, and He knows perfectly what we are feeling. I echo Nephi's words: I do not know the meaning of all things, I do not understand why this happened, but I know that God loves His children. 

Romans 8 "For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able toaseparate us from the blove of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Slowly but surely, we are finding peace.

Monday, December 12, 2011

there are no words

Aaron's little brother passed away last night. Our hearts are so broken, and I just keep hoping we will wake up from this nightmare.

Please, please, please keep us and his family in your prayers. We need all the help we can get.

Friday, December 9, 2011

my nail polish is really chipped. maybe that's why i'm so annoyed.

Found on facebook:

Yeah, I'm a girl. I push doors that CLEARLY say pull. I laugh harder when I'm trying to explain WHY I'm laughing. I walk into a room and forget why I even went in there. I count on my fingers for math. I hide my pain from my loved ones. I say it's a long story, when it's really NOT, just to get out of having to tell it. I cry a lot more than you think I do. I care about people who don't care about me. I am strong because I HAVE to be, not because I want to be. I listen to you, even when you DON'T listen to me. And yes, a hug will ALWAYS help♥.


"I count on my fingers for math."


Really? Sucking at math is a feminine characteristic?
Or is this just a random list of non-gender specific character traits that I've seen reposted by multiple girls?
Maybe they should just go buy one of those shirts JC Penney pulled offline proclaiming "I'm too pretty to do homework so my brother has to do it for me!" 


Yay girls! Yay equality! 

Sunday, December 4, 2011

a gift to the world

With Christmas fast approaching, maybe you could take 10 minutes and watch this video and remember what the holiday is really all about?

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him might not perish, but have everlasting life. 


John 3:16

What are you doing to make Christmas special this year?