Glass of water

So I miss having friends and doing stuff with people in my ward.

New Goal:
Stop skipping out on church activities such as...
combined FHEs
Relief Society enrichment activities
ward prayer
ward socials

It's not that I just don't go, it's that I always have other things going on...

Two days after Thanksgiving...

...I am thankful for:
friends
who will go on random Border's runs with me whether or not it's actually open
who will stay up until 3 AM watching movies because we can't stop talking to each other
who will indulge me in my weird movie obsessions..."Amelie"...what more can I say?
family
who lets me sleep until 1 (disgusting, I know. I've since repented.)
who will go to Maestro's for crepes and gelato (and will pay for it!)
who takes me shopping at 11:30 PM at Walmart so I don't go back to my apartment sans yogurt and other necessities
a boyfriend
who texts/calls me even when he's half way across the country
who buys me ridiculous cute outfits at Savers....ha
who bids forever on Coldplay tickets, only to be outbid at the last second :( It's the thought that counts :)
random stuff
getting paid to do what I love (yeah chemistry in any of its forms!), good books, good food, good movies, good music, having survived the college application process (my sister's in the middle of it...helped her with one of her essays ALL morning long), the gospel (really, this deserves a post all on its own), being. in. a. physics. class. (maybe if I say it, the physics gods will smile upon me and then eventually it'll be true), curly hair, cute boots, harvest peach yogurt, Coldplay albums for 99 cents (LoVe Amazon.com), getting paid, having a car for the weekend, computers with working CD burners, Border's coupons, Costa Vida punch cards, little sisters and a mom who clean, free laundry!!!

I love my life. I know I complain a lot of this blog, but you know what, that's what blogs are for...at least in my opinion.
C'est belle la vie. That's all I have to say about that.

me in a nutshell

I push the elevator button and then walk away and take the stairs.
That pretty much sums it up.

Colds, chemistry, and the College Board

My high school chemistry teacher Mrs. Snow swore you could talk yourself out of any sickness. She was always telling us, "You are NOT allowed to get sick and miss class! You are NOT getting a cold!" And you know what, by the end of the year, I believed her. I don't think I was ever sick.
I could feel a sore throat coming on yesterday and this morning I was whining in my head about it when all of a sudden I could hear her voice...."anyone can talk themselves out of getting sick! It's all about willpower!".....so, everyone, I. do. not. have. a. cold. :P

I miss Mrs. Snow. She was great.
In fact, I miss all of my AP teachers...

You know what job I think would be kinda fun? One of those counselors who grooms students to be accepted into Ivy League schools. It'd probably be good idea to have actually attended one though...I also think it'd be fun to be a tutor to get kids to pass AP tests. I really love the College Board, haha. They kept sending me good news in the mail. Now no one sends you an envelope showing your midterm exam score, and you don't get to be a scholar of distinction if you pass more than 5 of them (or whatever the requirement is).

Good news though: I only missed 3 questions on the multiple choice section of my latest o chem test!

be kind, react with alkynes.

sorry for the violent chemistry related post titles.
i can't help myself; i have an o chem test next monday.

anti markovnikov this!

PA9EWINAFNACI#9OARYGHAHHG
LSKALHVIACHALDHFHAHFAWIGAS
ERHGB'A'B'AO9IHGNAIDSCH;AKHF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going to go to my room and drink some dihydrogen monoxide!! So there!

I decided that I would really like to live in a condo next year.

Preferably with a washer and drier. And rent under $350/month.
And one on the south west side of campus.

I'm just kinda sick of living in crappy apartments, ya know?

Another thought: it really drives me crazy how people have stolen the tour team's lockers in the dressing room. We have the three end columns, and I always see one or two girls who are not on the tour team putting their stuff in those lockers and then sticking their own combination lock of them. What the crap? Those are not for you, honey. We need to keep our gazillion pairs of shoes in there. You're going to have to keep your clothes with you or leave them on the bench. :P

so there.

DANCESPORT!

This Friday and Saturday are the dancesport championships at my university!! Events will be going on all day starting around 8 and going until 11 or so at night. I'll be dancing in the Amateur Standard, Amateur Latin, Gold Bar Standard, and Gold Bar Latin events which will all be later in the evening. It's held in the student center ballroom, and tickets are somewhere around $8 for students. It's going to be awesome because the professional show is going to be done by.....

Victor Fung and Anna Mikhed!
4th place in the world for pro standard, freaking amazing.
It's going to be great. If you're not busy or anything...you could come if you want to...I'm going for the 10 dance trophy...should be pretty exciting...;)

Wordplay

I had this idea.

I used to write down words all the time when I was reading that I didn't know or wasn't exactly sure what the definition was and then I'd look them up later. BUT, I never actually used them in conversation after that, so I never remembered what they meant. This is what I'm going to do: I'm going to make a list of seven words that are really cool (either in meaning or sound) and then use one each day in conversation randomly. Then, I'm going to write up a blog post for each of them describing how I used the word and the weird looks people gave me.

Fun, no?

Yay for boggle/scrabble/reads "Eats, Shoots, and Leaves" (highly recommend it if you're into punctuation) grammar nerdiness!

Anyway, if you have any interesting words you'd like to suggest...well...be my guest. :)

i'll be okay tomorrow.

Saddest lyrics ever:

Anyway, i can try anything it's the same circle that leads to nowhere and i'm tired now.
anyway, i've lost my face, my dignity, my look, all of these things are gone and i'm tired now.
but don't be scared, i found a good job and i go to work every day on my old bicycle you loved.
i'm piling up some unread books under my bed and i really think i'll never read again.
no concentration, just a white disorder everywhere around me, you know i'm so tired now.
but don't worry i often go to dinners and parties with some old friends who care for me, take me back home and stay.
monochrome floors, monochrome walls, only absence near me, nothing but silence around me.
monochrome flat, monochrome life, only absence near me, nothing but silence around me.
sometimes i search an event or something to remember, but i've really got nothing in mind.
sometimes i open the windows and listen people walking in the down streets. there is a life out there.
but don't be scared, i found a good job and i go to work every day on my old bicycle you loved.
anyway, i can try anything it's the same circle that leads to nowhere and i'm tired now.
anyway, i've lost my face, my dignity, my look, all of these things are gone and i'm tired now.
but don't be scared, i found a good job and i go to work every day on my old bicycle you loved.
mochrome floors, monochrome walls, only absence near me, nothing but silence around me.
monochrome flat, monochrome life, only absence near me, nothing but silence around me.

Last year I was good at everything. This year I feel mediocre at everything.
Slipping
slipping
slipping
spreading
spreading
spreading too thin
too tired
too lost.
I...don't even know what to say. I'm struggling to remember how to work my magic, how to make it all pull together in the end. It's all just falling apart...I don't even know what I do with my time anymore. I rarely practice, I never study chemistry or French or physics, I never work in the lab, in fact the only thing I do consistently is read for my D&C class, but I'd be doing that anyway so it doesn't really count. And yet I still feel like I have no time, that I've always got "something" going on. What am I doing?! Well you know what, I need to snap out of it already. This is ridiculous. I can't believe I am practically throwing away everything for which I have worked so hard for 10+ years. I have never gotten anything below an A-. Never. Not in elementary school, not in junior high, not in high school, not in college so far. Everyone says this crap about grades not mattering anymore, but you know what, when I get As I earn them because I learn the material. I'm not learning anything now. I'm just going through the motions. In fact, I'm often not even doing that much. D&C: I haven't stayed awake in that class in months. Physics: I think I just scored below 20% on my last test. I hate it. This is not me.
Someone please slap me and spoon feed me self control. I can't handle anything.

And why the akjflk;dja;dfahdnc is BYU's website so dang slow? I just want to register for classes so I can go to bed.

:'(

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